Hi moridin,

  I don't doubt there are many truths in what you see in the world. For sure there is much suffering and unhappiness in the world today. But realistically speaking the world hasn't changed, just the program. There has always been difficulty and pain since the beginning of time. There was a time in history not long ago when a simple cold could kill a child or older person or stepping on a nail would result in death because we didn't have the ability to treat things like we do now. There was toiling to live in a poverty stricken world. Even my own relatives lived off beans and biscuits and thought nothing of it. But to some they would be horrified to be that 'poor'. And yet they seemed happier than any I know with lots of money. And it was because it was how they looked at things. We can always look at the harshness of the world or we can look at what's good in the world. Admittedly with 24 hour news these days, it's hard not to be drawn into the bad things.

I'm not trying to say things are great. But much of how bad things are is based in how we choose to look at them. You're at a difficult age no matter how you look at it. To say you'll feel differently as you get older may seem easy to say. I realize it's not that easy to do. But things do change. Do try to focus on the good things, even if it's something utterly small like a flower or bird, your pets if you have any, music, writing...there are so many things to make the world seem brighter than it is now for you.

It's kind of ironic seeing your post today. Lately I've been so down because of personal issues that I barely want to get out of bed. So I realize I have to take my own advice here and look for the good and beautiful things. It's good to put your thoughts down as you did. It's the only way to begin to resolve the hard times and move on. I'll try to do that and hope you can find some beauty as well, moridin. Like I said, you're at such a difficult age. It definitely was for me. I hope you start to feel better. I think the anger will go in time also. At least get better as you get older. Maybe you can try meditating. Sometimes it seems that doesn't work at all til all of a sudden you realize you really are calmer and more at peace. I wish you the best, hon.

Never thought my old religion would surface again but in these times it seems appropiate to remind myself of its teachings.
According to Hinduism we now live in the late stages of the dark age (Kali Yuga). Mankind is very far removed from divinity and is essentially a selfish creature. Too busy with material wealth the spiritual is set aside.
There is a light at the end however because what follows is the Dwapara Yuga; an age in where science flourishes and instead of taking people further away from their spiritual selves it will actually bring them closer.

I too have had, ans sometimes still have, many times that I'm angry. When I look around and see what mankind is doing to not only themselves but the entire planet, I get mad and upset. Sometimes it seems like the whole world is blind.
It's hard but when you look close enough there are positive things to be seen as well. Mankind is slowly becoming aware of its environment and the need to protect it. Spiritualism, in all its forms, is becoming popular, more and more intelligent voices are heard that are beginning to speak up and the list goes on.

Nobody enjoys being angry all the time and its an emotion that could make you physically sick if it goes on too long.
Find a way to release yourself of that anger; write it out of you, paint it away, take a long walk or start punching a pillow. Whatever gets that feeling out of you.
Best of all; you are also able to spend that energy, which would otherwise be wasted, on things that are positive for you.

I could say a lot more about this but I don't want to rant on. Just know that you are not alone in feeling the way you do and that by itself is a positive thing. People's eyes are opening; it's slow but it's a start.